I'm not Russian. But I do understand the concept of perestroika & glasnost that Mikhail Gorbachev (the last leader of USSR) brought to the Soviet Union at their last years, around 1985-1991.

What the heck is Perestroika?

Perestroika means restructuring, and glasnost means openness. You may ask, what the heck does it have to do with this guy (me)?

Well, truth be told, I am in the middle of restructuring my life over the past six months. And the result is sadly almost the same as the one Gorbachev did. It did not succeed. What they did in the USSR is changing from the old socialist planned economy to market liberalism, and things didn't goes smoothly.

In my case, I used to be fully controlled by my mom. I mean, she claimed to be a liberal, letting me choose path of my life as long as it fits her long-term plan. This plan consist of "where do you gonna work, think about it before choosing your college major". I mean, it's true, but, come on, I have a different interest than yours. I knew, you want to made me enroll in STAN, a free college funded by the government. And after I graduated from that place, (hopefully) I be able to become government worker (pegawai negeri).

I want more control of myself. Yes, I knew the consequences like; not immediately getting job after graduating college.

Back to the perestroika thing. There is a lot of things that I want to reform. Things like having a personal room, made myself ripped, learning true English, and getting a friend (a close one).

Sports

What's the progress on them? Well, nothing came close to my expectation. I still don't have a room myself, because my house is small (it's practical reason, so no hate for that fact).

I never been a fan of sports. But after seeing those handsome Briton teens, I want to build my body. I mean, I'm too thin even by Asian standard. No muscles whatsoever. Can't even jog for about 100 m without running out of breath.

English skill

And if you're still having a hard time decrypting actual meaning of this post, well, thank me for my shit English skill. I used to fully hate grammar, but then I realized it is needed for everyday use. I couldn't just talk like this and hope that I will be accepted in BIM and get good score on IELTS. So dumb.

Well at least there is still a progress on English listening part. I could listen to a Tom Scott video without the need to constantly read captions. That's not much (I knew). I don't know how to speedrun this "learning language" thing.

Friends will be friends

Getting a friend is a hard thing to do. I'm not a fan of listening to people's thought, despite me saying that (in this blog homepage). But I like to be heard, like probably every person in this earth wants.

They said in a friendship, you have to take and give. Yet I just want to take, not give something back. I'd tell you what, I'm a dick. I'm a bad listener. Maybe I should learn to be more empathic to people. But how??

I wonder how does people can easily get friend.